Remnants of my old self, pre-Deus era.

During my pregnancy, I was part of the unlucky ones who gained a lot of weight while carrying their babies. I was 30 pounds heavier which frankly I didn't mind back then since I am more concerned about Deus' welfare. I ate whatever I want but balanced my food intake by eating fruits and vegetables. And because of the weight gain, I rarely post or take photos of myself. I also didn't buy pregnancy clothes and wore my old clothes instead as a way of motivating myself to get back in shape after giving birth. 

Well, that's what I thought. Apparently, I can only do that if I had a normal operation but instead went thru a caesarean operation. You see, I had trouble during labor and was advised by my OB to undergo CS to which I obliged.  I can endure the pain and the complications it can possibly bring but I cannot simply risk the life of my baby, I have waited for this moment far too long to jeopardize this. 

Now 6 weeks after Deus was born and still 20 pounds heavier, I am still biding my time to get back in shape. Looking at Deus, I am no longer compelled to be thin but instead stay healthy for him. I know this mommy can bounce back but for now Deus is my priority. My time will come, after 2 or 3 months that is. Hopefully.

I decided to create a mobile to be hung to his crib now that Deus is 5-weeks old. Babies at this stage are now able to see pattern and discern colors. 

This DIY project is super easy and cheap. All you need are colored papers preferably black and white since at this stage babies are still developing their eyesight and can only recognize these colors; thread and a piece of branch that we painted white. I made origami paper cranes with different sizes which I plan to change once Deus is old enough. 

The stormy weather this weekend has inspired me to cozy things up in our bedroom. To create this neutral pallet, I used black throw pillow and a grey duvet.  I also added a cream rug to complete this monochromatic look in our bedroom.

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Cap from Harpoon Co. 

Bag from Harpoon Co.

To my main man and the father of my child, Happy Birthday! Deus is now our greatest adventure to date and I can't wait to create more memories as a family.

Just read an article on motherhood and the writer is right. No matter how many books and tutorials you read and saw, you will never be prepared enough. Having a child changes everything. Your life before you had a baby will seem unimportant now and you are left forever vulnerable after having a child. 

I would nowadays find myself changing the tv station while watching the news if it is about a child with a certain sickness or anything related to children as a matter of fact. There was also an instance when I woke up one night to nurse Deus and found him with so much rheum in his eyes. It was like a nightmare for me, I even suggested that we take him to the hospital right away but the mister insisted that its only normal for babies to be like that. Next morning, I found out that it was just a case of sticky eye. I also now have a better appreciation for my mother who has helped me after my pregnancy, taking care of me, of Deus, of everything.

It has only been one month since I gave birth and I know there are still a lot in store for me. And I can't hardly wait to see for Deus to grow up and create memories. I can't wait to experience motherhood life. A life with Deus.

Our little man has just turned one month old today and I couldn't be happier. You are my true love, my reason for today and my promise of tomorrow. We love you.